New
Not sure why I titled it New but yeah. It is God using my randomness at His best for this one. It is more like an Intro, but that blog title already exists....it just doesn't cover this stuff.
Well still clueless and now with more on my mind than I ever imagined, I look forward to a very new blog journey if not more blogs in general. My main direction right now is to continue to improve how I mother my children as I have gained much patience in my year of homeschooling, but still have areas God has been clearly dealing with me on involving them. Also, the second part of my main direction given is to cut back wasting my time on the computer. Both have improved, but not to a point where I know God has His mindset on for my life.
Spiritual debates have been on almost every issue of my life this year, and I know a huge reason he wants me to change my approaches in the 2 main areas is to further focus on Him while teaching my children how to do the same. I need direction more than I have ever needed it before. I don’t want my will to be done in answering the questions and thoughts running through my mind. I am actually rather sick of how off my will can be, despite more spiritual growth in the past 2 years especially, but 6 years total than previously in my life.
God and I don’t tend to sugar coat things when talking with each other. I know many mention a “still small voice,” and God does wait for me to be truly still to talk to me, but I tend to need “smack could have had a v8” type bluntness to know beyond a doubt it is God. Most of my blogs seem harsh, but it is honestly just where the me and God private stuff is at in my life. I don’t think God is like that with everyone, and I don’t type these to be offensive to fellow believers. I also think transparency is best when it comes to my struggles, failures, and more. I would much rather have people know the real me than think they know me.
I don’t like being told that someone has “done way worse” than me when it comes to sins. Not only did I not call myself Christian for a good period in my life to give me a list of sins and things to do wrong, I also had a longer period of knowing the truths with it not being real (feeling and understanding beyond a point of knowledge) enough to follow. That being said, I will always be honest with my past and my current struggles. I really feel that all sin is the same in God’s eyes other than the only one he says to be unforgivable in the bible.
I will also be taking a potential blog break as I work through typing as much of my “reasons I know God is real…” I need to get detailed and in depth on here so more can know the story. I am not sure if I am starting with my crash or if God wants it to go back much further in my life than that. The crash definitely made the ultimate reality of the bible being completely true for how it is, not just for how we choose to change it to adapt to our lives already around us. It also made very real how much I must love my neighbors, strangers at the store, people driving on the road with me that get my attention (usually in a negative way) as God would love them. We have no promise that we will see tomorrow, or that they will see tomorrow.
Ok I am done typing for now as my head is reeling again with many directions that wouldn’t make sense to someone who is not very random and illogical in how they connect their dots. I write when it makes logical sense, and then wait until the direction is clear again before writing since my dots do not connect the same way many other people’s dots would. This is for God’s glory, not confusion.
Well still clueless and now with more on my mind than I ever imagined, I look forward to a very new blog journey if not more blogs in general. My main direction right now is to continue to improve how I mother my children as I have gained much patience in my year of homeschooling, but still have areas God has been clearly dealing with me on involving them. Also, the second part of my main direction given is to cut back wasting my time on the computer. Both have improved, but not to a point where I know God has His mindset on for my life.
Spiritual debates have been on almost every issue of my life this year, and I know a huge reason he wants me to change my approaches in the 2 main areas is to further focus on Him while teaching my children how to do the same. I need direction more than I have ever needed it before. I don’t want my will to be done in answering the questions and thoughts running through my mind. I am actually rather sick of how off my will can be, despite more spiritual growth in the past 2 years especially, but 6 years total than previously in my life.
God and I don’t tend to sugar coat things when talking with each other. I know many mention a “still small voice,” and God does wait for me to be truly still to talk to me, but I tend to need “smack could have had a v8” type bluntness to know beyond a doubt it is God. Most of my blogs seem harsh, but it is honestly just where the me and God private stuff is at in my life. I don’t think God is like that with everyone, and I don’t type these to be offensive to fellow believers. I also think transparency is best when it comes to my struggles, failures, and more. I would much rather have people know the real me than think they know me.
I don’t like being told that someone has “done way worse” than me when it comes to sins. Not only did I not call myself Christian for a good period in my life to give me a list of sins and things to do wrong, I also had a longer period of knowing the truths with it not being real (feeling and understanding beyond a point of knowledge) enough to follow. That being said, I will always be honest with my past and my current struggles. I really feel that all sin is the same in God’s eyes other than the only one he says to be unforgivable in the bible.
I will also be taking a potential blog break as I work through typing as much of my “reasons I know God is real…” I need to get detailed and in depth on here so more can know the story. I am not sure if I am starting with my crash or if God wants it to go back much further in my life than that. The crash definitely made the ultimate reality of the bible being completely true for how it is, not just for how we choose to change it to adapt to our lives already around us. It also made very real how much I must love my neighbors, strangers at the store, people driving on the road with me that get my attention (usually in a negative way) as God would love them. We have no promise that we will see tomorrow, or that they will see tomorrow.
Ok I am done typing for now as my head is reeling again with many directions that wouldn’t make sense to someone who is not very random and illogical in how they connect their dots. I write when it makes logical sense, and then wait until the direction is clear again before writing since my dots do not connect the same way many other people’s dots would. This is for God’s glory, not confusion.
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