Stronger
So many people look at my life and parts of my story and feel I can't catch a break, but I haven't really viewed anything that has happened quite like that. See the simplest fact is that God made me strong, physically, mostly mentally, and through trials spiritually as well. For a long time that strength was misused, but now everything just makes my testimony and life show God and His strength through me.
Surgeries 13 & 14 will be done at the same time. A few others previously have been done at the same time as well, but even without that part added in, not many face surgeries 13 & 14 at the age of 30. Some have faced more, some have faced none. For the most part my recoveries have gone really well and very quickly compared to the expected time for recovery and healing. And even though I can't look as healthy as I used to, because I am a bit less physically active due to the neck surgeries, I am not weak or unhealthy. They couldn't do the standard test needed to prove what was wrong with me, even though they were as sure as I was. Instead they put me through tests that would show organ function and health on all levels for everything else, to leave the only thing untested what needed to be fixed. Everything was in excellent order. And no matter how much this is genetic or could have been made worse due to food allergies, God does still have a plan to use the strength he gave me in some form for his glory. Women in my family have done pretty well for living long healthy lives, and even if that for some reason isn't God's plan for mine, I am not going to think anything bad of this current trial over the long term or short term.
We have had quite a few trials to deal with this summer in our family, and many would be freaking out or completely exhausted and frustrated now, and it would be considered reasonable by many. I can't explain how our finances have worked out through all of the expenses we have unexpectedly had other than God. And even now, I am at such peace about this whole thing, and as crazy as this may sound to some the more time I take to listen to sermons or music that is uplifting, the more managed my pain is. I have 2 of the strongest medicines they can prescribe, and those haven't touched my pain, but when I use the down time for spiritual health the pain is almost mild.
I refuse to be a victim no matter how hard this trial gets either with me or other aspects of our life. We have been through worse, and still maintained our strength and became stronger. The biggest trials always seem to come before the best blessings that are beyond your wildest dreams of what you wanted to happen. Not all the improvements toward my annual goals are being seen well enough yet, but that doesn't change how much progress there has been from the inside as well as outside. My goals aren't even health related, but the drastic changes are coming soon and now I can smile knowing just how ready we are for them. This time last year, I honestly had many of the things in mind, but wasn't actively working towards them to be different like I am now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5GmglLMAlo&list=PLoIPGsA2KsYkzaB-ytFnScVJYXzBco_2q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgcjC9DEzTs&list=PLoIPGsA2KsYkzaB-ytFnScVJYXzBco_2q&index=2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zz9TicUNwRM
Surgeries 13 & 14 will be done at the same time. A few others previously have been done at the same time as well, but even without that part added in, not many face surgeries 13 & 14 at the age of 30. Some have faced more, some have faced none. For the most part my recoveries have gone really well and very quickly compared to the expected time for recovery and healing. And even though I can't look as healthy as I used to, because I am a bit less physically active due to the neck surgeries, I am not weak or unhealthy. They couldn't do the standard test needed to prove what was wrong with me, even though they were as sure as I was. Instead they put me through tests that would show organ function and health on all levels for everything else, to leave the only thing untested what needed to be fixed. Everything was in excellent order. And no matter how much this is genetic or could have been made worse due to food allergies, God does still have a plan to use the strength he gave me in some form for his glory. Women in my family have done pretty well for living long healthy lives, and even if that for some reason isn't God's plan for mine, I am not going to think anything bad of this current trial over the long term or short term.
We have had quite a few trials to deal with this summer in our family, and many would be freaking out or completely exhausted and frustrated now, and it would be considered reasonable by many. I can't explain how our finances have worked out through all of the expenses we have unexpectedly had other than God. And even now, I am at such peace about this whole thing, and as crazy as this may sound to some the more time I take to listen to sermons or music that is uplifting, the more managed my pain is. I have 2 of the strongest medicines they can prescribe, and those haven't touched my pain, but when I use the down time for spiritual health the pain is almost mild.
I refuse to be a victim no matter how hard this trial gets either with me or other aspects of our life. We have been through worse, and still maintained our strength and became stronger. The biggest trials always seem to come before the best blessings that are beyond your wildest dreams of what you wanted to happen. Not all the improvements toward my annual goals are being seen well enough yet, but that doesn't change how much progress there has been from the inside as well as outside. My goals aren't even health related, but the drastic changes are coming soon and now I can smile knowing just how ready we are for them. This time last year, I honestly had many of the things in mind, but wasn't actively working towards them to be different like I am now.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c5GmglLMAlo&list=PLoIPGsA2KsYkzaB-ytFnScVJYXzBco_2q
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lgcjC9DEzTs&list=PLoIPGsA2KsYkzaB-ytFnScVJYXzBco_2q&index=2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zz9TicUNwRM
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