Confessions
Please read my Intro found in Feb. if you are new to reading my blog.
I love that no matter what you face in life, there is always something in the bible that can guide you.
First I am going to start by saying I have been very guilty of being too judgmental and prideful recently, as I somehow justified it with many situations. I tend to have these areas of sin when I am depressed, and can’t figure out how to deal with myself. I either cover it up with pride, or I judge people I have no business judging almost as a way of “I am not the only one struggling right now.” I don’t think of anyone as worse than me sin wise or less than me lifestyle wise. My judgment usually comes in when I am not submissive to the spirit. I find things I think I should pray about for others, instead of taking the time to reconnect myself. I am a firm believer in confessing sins to others, so that in honesty you can move forward in your walk as well as have others supporting you in prayer or other ways.
Tonight I am reading Job. I was struggling a lot with how much I have lost in my life, which I used to love so much. On top of that there has been some major financial stress in our house that has never existed before. We have faced times with less money than now, but have never been so burdened or stressed about the overall situation. That being said, I never lose faith in my God. Anytime we have had a need for clothes, food, vehicles, and so much more; He has always provided. There are so many moments in my life that without a very loving God who heals and restores; I know I wouldn’t have made it through. Even some of the worst things ever, I have a positive mindset on now.
Storms never get easier. I think the more we learn and grow, the better we handle them through God’s grace and mercy. I have praised God through many storms, but still occasionally struggle with the self pity and “why me” moments. To me the funny part of those moments is with the simplest glance at many other situations, you know it could be worse and yet still struggle to give up that storm to God. I like thinking I somehow control any portion of my storm, or that an occasional pity fest or even moment of forgetting to be honest with God, has anything to do with me. God knew us before we were born. He knew our choices good and bad before we ever made them. How arrogant are we to think that we have any control over what is going on in our lives, or even our day to day routines? Being completely honest is what keeps me in check, even when that check takes a bit to swallow. Why should we constantly tell God, the ruler and creator of everything, how big our storm is? We will never have control in the storm, and no matter the many situations compacting together to make that very large explosion; God is still God. God is bigger than it all.
Look at Job. In 5-15 minutes of just one day he lost all of his farm and farm help and all of his kids. I mean as each messenger was coming to give him the news of what they barely escaped themselves, another one would show up before the previous one had finished talking. And yet despite this unimaginable grief of losing his large business and children, he says “I came naked from my mother’s womb, and I will be stripped of everything when I die. The LORD gave me everything that I had, and the LORD has taken it away. Praise the name of the LORD!” Not once did he sin by blaming God.
Before God allowed Satan to test Job in his unwavering faith, God wouldn’t allow Satan to harm him physically on the first day. I know many people; myself included who have endured a ton of physical harm. Some of mine I know were tests or wake up calls for other areas in life. In my pain I have an easy time losing sight of all the good, and to me this really does seem like sin. We are only on Earth for a temporary time, and even if that time is 101 years and counting; eternity will always be longer. We have the promise of no pain, no sorrow, no stress or worry for all of eternity. That alone should be reason enough to not fall back into the sin of being selfish, and yet I still lose my God honesty and reality which makes me have to repent and take the time to lay it all out again for Him.
On day 2, Job had boils all over his body. His wife was telling him to just curse God and die. In this Job still didn’t sin or say anything wrong. Instead he said, “ You talk like a godless woman. Should we accept only the good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” I like that shortly after this Job has his own “pity party” and finally shows that it can be an easy snare to be trapped in. Just like many of us, his friend comes to the rescue with the encouragement in God that he so needed in that time.
I will never understand having no faith, or doubt in God. I have been through more than enough of my own struggles to know my sins, but to also know just how real God has always proven himself to be.
I love that no matter what you face in life, there is always something in the bible that can guide you.
First I am going to start by saying I have been very guilty of being too judgmental and prideful recently, as I somehow justified it with many situations. I tend to have these areas of sin when I am depressed, and can’t figure out how to deal with myself. I either cover it up with pride, or I judge people I have no business judging almost as a way of “I am not the only one struggling right now.” I don’t think of anyone as worse than me sin wise or less than me lifestyle wise. My judgment usually comes in when I am not submissive to the spirit. I find things I think I should pray about for others, instead of taking the time to reconnect myself. I am a firm believer in confessing sins to others, so that in honesty you can move forward in your walk as well as have others supporting you in prayer or other ways.
Tonight I am reading Job. I was struggling a lot with how much I have lost in my life, which I used to love so much. On top of that there has been some major financial stress in our house that has never existed before. We have faced times with less money than now, but have never been so burdened or stressed about the overall situation. That being said, I never lose faith in my God. Anytime we have had a need for clothes, food, vehicles, and so much more; He has always provided. There are so many moments in my life that without a very loving God who heals and restores; I know I wouldn’t have made it through. Even some of the worst things ever, I have a positive mindset on now.
Storms never get easier. I think the more we learn and grow, the better we handle them through God’s grace and mercy. I have praised God through many storms, but still occasionally struggle with the self pity and “why me” moments. To me the funny part of those moments is with the simplest glance at many other situations, you know it could be worse and yet still struggle to give up that storm to God. I like thinking I somehow control any portion of my storm, or that an occasional pity fest or even moment of forgetting to be honest with God, has anything to do with me. God knew us before we were born. He knew our choices good and bad before we ever made them. How arrogant are we to think that we have any control over what is going on in our lives, or even our day to day routines? Being completely honest is what keeps me in check, even when that check takes a bit to swallow. Why should we constantly tell God, the ruler and creator of everything, how big our storm is? We will never have control in the storm, and no matter the many situations compacting together to make that very large explosion; God is still God. God is bigger than it all.
Look at Job. In 5-15 minutes of just one day he lost all of his farm and farm help and all of his kids. I mean as each messenger was coming to give him the news of what they barely escaped themselves, another one would show up before the previous one had finished talking. And yet despite this unimaginable grief of losing his large business and children, he says “I came naked from my mother’s womb, and I will be stripped of everything when I die. The LORD gave me everything that I had, and the LORD has taken it away. Praise the name of the LORD!” Not once did he sin by blaming God.
Before God allowed Satan to test Job in his unwavering faith, God wouldn’t allow Satan to harm him physically on the first day. I know many people; myself included who have endured a ton of physical harm. Some of mine I know were tests or wake up calls for other areas in life. In my pain I have an easy time losing sight of all the good, and to me this really does seem like sin. We are only on Earth for a temporary time, and even if that time is 101 years and counting; eternity will always be longer. We have the promise of no pain, no sorrow, no stress or worry for all of eternity. That alone should be reason enough to not fall back into the sin of being selfish, and yet I still lose my God honesty and reality which makes me have to repent and take the time to lay it all out again for Him.
On day 2, Job had boils all over his body. His wife was telling him to just curse God and die. In this Job still didn’t sin or say anything wrong. Instead he said, “ You talk like a godless woman. Should we accept only the good things from the hand of God and never anything bad?” I like that shortly after this Job has his own “pity party” and finally shows that it can be an easy snare to be trapped in. Just like many of us, his friend comes to the rescue with the encouragement in God that he so needed in that time.
I will never understand having no faith, or doubt in God. I have been through more than enough of my own struggles to know my sins, but to also know just how real God has always proven himself to be.
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