Thoughts that keep me up at night...

Well I have ignored all too many times that I have a powerful insight I have from God to post. Tonight I am going to post then sleep, despite my body's desire for the opposite. I am shocked after a simple and probably childish example of complacency, how much I was unaware of spiritually. I tend to have a full scan method when approaching my bathroom, because when I forget I find a centipede or large for our state spider. But I realized how quickly I forget to take a couple seconds to scan before entering, which made me realize if all that were spiritual, it follows pattern for all too fast we become complacent to Satan's minor lies that can add up quick. We have been told to stay alert to Satan's schemes, because God realized how easy it is to go from alert to complacent, and from complacent to apathetic. See much like looking to ensure some bug I don't like might not fall from the ceiling on me, or run across my unsuspecting foot, we need to look for Satan's tri...

I have re read my old posts so many times. Most of the time, as much as I agree with the thoughts in them still, I laugh at how angry they sound. I was in a critical mentality when I started this a few years ago. I can own up to that now, even though at the time I just felt it was my own personal passions needing to be voiced, especially when God & I fought on my issues. I need to add/change the my story blog as well soon. God has really been dealing with me on adding some key things I haven't put in there yet. Like before the crash, most of my prayer life was "God I can't trust him, so I will trust you, that you have a plan for this pain and hurt to change Him. I am willing to commit to you that I will live my vows and stay committed to him, no matter the hurt, so that your will can be done." Honestly neither of us were as God centered as we needed to be, but I knew that I had to be all in and be serious about faith and finding that true relationship with God i...