Thoughts that keep me up at night...

Random writing I had found in one of my old massage notebooks. Not sure when I wrote it, but might as well add it here for those who may need it. Love is being willing to die for the other person. Love is not knowing the whole story, but being willing to listen and believe. Love is the best thing in the world. Acceptance indescribable. Patience undeniable. Singing in the rain or dancing through the pain. Love is an everlasting friendship when you’re the furthest apart. Love is exciting, inspirational, and magnetic. Love is more beautiful than words. There is a lot behind those 3 simple words. There is more than just saying it because it is expected. You can say it in a friendly way any day. But don’t say it as more until you truly feel that way. Thinking you’re in love and being in love are two different things. Understanding the difference makes you stronger. “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not ruse, it is no...

Not sure why I titled it New but yeah. It is God using my randomness at His best for this one. It is more like an Intro, but that blog title already exists....it just doesn't cover this stuff. Well still clueless and now with more on my mind than I ever imagined, I look forward to a very new blog journey if not more blogs in general. My main direction right now is to continue to improve how I mother my children as I have gained much patience in my year of homeschooling, but still have areas God has been clearly dealing with me on involving them. Also, the second part of my main direction given is to cut back wasting my time on the computer. Both have improved, but not to a point where I know God has His mindset on for my life. Spiritual debates have been on almost every issue of my life this year, and I know a huge reason he wants me to change my approaches in the 2 main areas is to further focus on Him while teaching my children how to do the same. I need direction more than...

I wasn't originally sure when I wrote this, that it should be posted, but I am now. So tonight there will be 2 blogs. This was from January though. Funny how earlier I was thinking it had been too long since I had written down anything. There is always a lot I could write down, or even should, but more often I forget. Currently, I can’t sleep thinking about my crash from over 2 years ago. On the 2 year 1 day mark of the crash I had to sit through the deposition for my case. Honestly, the emotions I felt there I can’t begin to describe. It took until at least half way through the drilling of questions for me to have a clear visual image in my head like I was in the crash all over again. Now I need to change some of my answers to give correct testimony, and don’t know how I can type it all out or sound sane in my answers. Worst of all, I can’t get the images out of my head to go to sleep. I know God was with me as it all occurred and I know He is the only reason I was at peace wit...