Thoughts that keep me up at night...

Why do bitter people only have 2 settings; either knowing they are bitter and lovingly embracing their bitterness overall else, being toxic to any who cross the line of bitterness they hold, or claiming they hold no bitterness, but then are vicious like vipers striking to kill, and repeatedly striking if necessary of you accidentally cross a line you didn't know about in advance? I need social media to help run my son's business, or I would eliminate it permanently. I don't have real friends off of social media, and part of that is because I was a pretty sucky friend off social media myself for a long time. I don't like how everything you type, even if you don't mean it in a condescending or insulting way, gets taken as such, because whoever is reading it already has their own tone of voice they think all comments would be read as, and because of all the various topics that are inflammatory, it's consistently an attack. Could be meant as a discussion, or just ...

We're called to turn the other cheek, and yet we constantly have social media telling us all about toxicity, immaturity, and even not accepting apologies, only different behavior. I wasn't raised to be weak, or to not fight back. I wasn't raised to be codependent, and battle a lot when I have to be due to physical limits. I love my independence; I love my strength, but I also have no idea when I am wrestling with things emotionally that feel big, if I am responding correctly, because all I want to do is shut down, walk away, or find a solution by myself without drama or input. There were times I was super rebellious in how I handled things, and while my heart isn't wanting to rebel now for any reason, I wrestle with my biblical knowledge of what to do or how to handle a situation, and my own stubbornness that wants to say "ok all of that, but not this. I'm not done with this yet." Even typing this I know most likely it's the wrong attitude, and yet I g...